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06:04 pm
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Life in Eddyville...
Eddyville is litterally,
in the boondocks.
We live 21 miles outside of town.
It is so boring.
I feel like I am not even living a life anymore.
No friends, no phone and no access to email.
But I admit, there is fun.
Singing in the church to praise my Lord and Savior,
Jesus Christ.
And I am in a dance class in Newport.
Funk 2.
That is about it.
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09:20 pm
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Advice...Take It or Leave It
You only have one shot at life.
Take advantage of it and don't get caught up in money.
Become something that you never thought you could be.
Prove to the ones that doubt you that they are wrong.
Live like you were dying, like there was no tommorrow.
Tell the people you love, that you love them.
Don't let anyone in the world bring you down.
Have total self-respect.
The only people that can hurt you emotionally are the people you let hurt you.
Make the greatest, most truthful, trustworthy friends you can.
Keep the drugs out of your body. God didn't create you to destroy him.
Stay healthy as well as active.
You only have one shot at life. Live it to the fullest and don't let it pass you by.
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09:25 pm
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The Story of my Life....
I was born and from that time, I was abused, verbally, sexually, emotionally and physically. My parents lost me and my 3 sisters because of their drug and alcohol addications. My sister Crystal, and I were taken from school. She was 7 and I was 6. How it happened, I remember like it was just yesterday.
Crystal and I had been at school. The nurses had seen bruises and scratches all over our bodies. They'd asked, "How did you get those"? We'd explained our parents "punished" us for not doing our chores. And that our other 2 sisters were 5 and 3 1/2 and the same thing happened to them. Crystal and I were taken to a foster home. The police had explained we would only be there for a little while. Jamie(5) and Tiffanie(3) were going to be taken away as well. We didn't see each other for 5 years after that.
Some of my foster homes were very abusive. One in which I had my nose broken(and still is), I was molested and worked more than a child should have been. My schedule during the summer was to wake up at 6:00am and go work on the farm until 5:00pm. Feed the horses, chickens, cows, bulls, cats and all the other animals. I was being chased by a bull and my foster dad had just stood there and watched. Clean the stalls, water the bins and to give the animals baths. Then I was to pick up bails of hay 5 times my size. They were at least a hundred pounds each. That was to be continued until 8:00pm. Then I would have to go in the house, do all the chores. At this point, my sisters were involved in the same foster home. The foster parents never called us by our names. We were roped by the neck as if we were a horse or some type of animal. There was never time for play. Ever. My sister Jamie, she use to wet the bed because of the nightmares she would have. The foster parents, every morning when she wet the bed, they would rub her face in it to "teach" her a lesson. Tiffanie(4) had set down a dog and the foster brother said she'd dropped it, so he picked her up and threw her across the kitchen. She hit her neck against the wall and it almost snapped. He could have killed her. We were only fed twice a day. Half of a peanut butter sand-which for lunch and dinner. We were never called by our names. They called us "the stevenson girls". We were forced to wear pull ups to bed weather we wanted to or not. One day, I had stayed home sick and my foster brother malested me when the foster parents were down at the barn. I never told anybody because I was afraid of what would happen to me. Now that I have said something, 7 years later, nobody believes me. I have been in 31 foster homes since the day I was taken, April 30, 1997.
I now am working for my G.E.D. and working toward living with my sister Jamie, whom lives in West Salem. I havn't seen her since a few years ago. Tiffanie was adopted when she was 10 years old by one of my old teachers. She is now almost 13 years old, in January. Crystal is now free of the state as of 3 weeks ago. She is 17 and will be 18 in January. My father lives in Indiana. Crystal ran away to go live with him, and did it successfully. He is off of drugs now and only drinks. My mom lives in Eugene. Supposedly. She over dosed on alcohol about a month and a half ago and almost died from it. She, as far as I know, is still on drugs. My mom is 36 years old and her father died in 2005 from serosis of the liver. I swear, she doesn't even care. It is like she just wants to throw her life away and I for one am not going to end up like her and her mother.
I am a Christian now and I totally devote my life to God. My life is in his hands and I trust him to take care of me and my family. Now everything has been working out and I realize, how much I have been truely blessed with. I realized I have a lot of talents. I can sing, dance, play sports, draw and even write poetry and I thank God for all that he has done and helped me with through my life. I am not ashamed or afraid to speak the name of Jesus Christ.
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09:07 pm
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I Miss You
I miss you more than ever,
I don't know what to think.
I dream of you every night
and nothing can replace the love we shared.
I wish there was a way that we could be together,
but we are so far apart.
You are near in my heart,
no matter what you think.
I miss you and wander what
it is like to kiss your lips,
just once.
I want and need you like a drug,
I am addicted.
I love you and miss you.
I need you in my arms.
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02:55 pm
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Heal...
I have always felt something wrong with me,
different from all others in my life.
Now I have learned, you have scars of your own,
given no-one to trust or depend on.
When you're with me, I feel alive,
like nothing is wrong inside of me.
Can one day I do the same for you,
And help you recover from your past?
Are you meant to heal with me,
to help eachother mend our hearts.
Can we someday replace what we've lost,
and become free from the hurts inside.
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02:46 pm
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I Would...
I would give up my life for you in an instant,
Love, making neither choice, not thought nor contemption needed.
I would cast out my soul,
to see you breathe another day.
I would travel to the ends of the earth,
to see you smile once more.
I would take on the pains of the world,
just to ease your aches.
I would live one thousand lives,
to let you live one happy one.
I would choke the life from my own heart,
just to hear yours beat once more.
I would give up everything,
for your happiness to grow.
My love knows no limits,
nothing to great a cost.
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02:00 pm
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I....
I love you more than ever before,
I fall deeper each day we are together.
I thought I had lost it, it was never gone.
I merely buried it, it has returned.
I cannot help but love you,
I have seen what others do not.
So amazing, everything you are,
More than they could know.
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07:25 pm
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Alone Without You
I am alone on this night
Wishing you were here by my side.
I wish I could touch you again,
And know that you're truly real.
Again you're far away,
but always near in my heart.
Someday i hope you'll be here,
Enjoying the view that reminds me of you.
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07:18 pm
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Discovery
Faraway places,
Events gone by,
Interesting faces
Make you laugh,
make you cry.
Cities never visited,
Easy to see,
Mytsteries unsolved,
unraveled for me.
In the chair by my bed,
Tall mountains I've scaled,
In the pages I've read,
Seven oceans i've sailed.
Stories on pages
picture it well.
Mystical fables,
only books can tell.
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01:04 pm
[Link] | My worst fear, a dependancy,
I have succumbed to a need.
For a day without you here,
Rips me apart internally.
Like a drug I am addicted to you,
The ecstasy I feel from seeing you.
Your light scent is intoxicating,
Pleasurable and internally.
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12:08 pm
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This is random, I was pissed off
I feel like it's the end of my life,
As I take this knife close to my wrist,
I think why,
why do I do this?
I've got to do this!
No time to waist.
As I draw the knife to my flesh,
I cut slowly,
moving the knife back and forth.
As blood comes to the surface,
My pain slows down,
the pain and agony.
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06:06 pm
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My Bio...
Who do you love right now?; Taylor English
Name;Kalie Jo-Anna Stevenson
Age;16
Sex;Female
Born;3/31/90 In Butte,Montanna
Raised; Salem,OR
Mother's Maiden Name;Bobi-Jo Young
Father's Maiden Name;James Paul Stevenson
Siblings; 9
Education; G.E.D
Career; Actress
Goal; Become an actress
Last grade completed; Freshmen
Children; Someday
Interests; Singing, Dancing, Swimming, 4-Wheeling, BMX, Dirt-biking, Fishing, Modeling, Fashion, Taking pictures, Sky-diving, Tap.
Music; Country, Christian, Some rap, Rock, Metal, Christian Rock
Favorite Grade; 6th
Favorite Color(s); Pink and Green
Favorite Actor/Actress; Reese Witherspoon and Johnny Depp
Favorite Food; Salads and pizza and chinese
Favorite Band/singer; Rascal Flatts and Kelly Clarkson
Favorite shoe; High-heels
First Love; Andrew Miner
Favorite Candy; Almond Roca
Favorite Movie; the Notebook and Titanic
Favorite Rose; Pink and Yellow
Favorite Song; Hero by Enrique Iglesias
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05:30 pm
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What I Love About You
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and brown,
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy
and the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say I love you
and the way you're lways there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love the way that you're with me
and glad that you're mine.
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05:04 pm
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One Wish
If I could have one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
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09:28 pm
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Motionless
If time could stand still, I'd freeze it here,
So you'd always hold me, close and near.
In your arms, where I am meant to be,
Filled with the perfect love you've given me.
A bond so strong, a hold so tight,
To know you're the one, my "Mr. Right".
A blessing sent from up above,
In you I've found my one true love.
Our lives intertwined to be as one,
Upon this journey, we've just begun.
Where you and I will find no less,
than eternal love and happiness.
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09:21 pm
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Dreams
I dream of your touch while you are away,
I dream of your smile all through the day,
I remember the day,
you came into my life,
I dream of the day that I will be you wife.
I dream of the day, I can fall asleep next to you,
I dream of the day I can say, "I DO".
To be your wife,
To be together for life,
Is a dream I have,
Everynight.
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08:32 pm
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Will you ever?
I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.
I don't think you could ever know
how truely special you are
that even on the darkest nights,
you are my brightest star.
I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.
You've allowed me to experience
someting very hard to find,
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.
I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.
You are an amazing person
and without you, I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life,
completes and fullfills every part of me.
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07:57 pm
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My vow to you
Here in the cathedral of my heart,
In the time we are given,
there, here and now,
we stand as one,
You are my hope and heart.
In the long arm's of morning's first light,
as the music of our new life begins,
your hand in mine makes everything right,
you are my breath and my life.
In the warm, soft rain of your love,
As if in answer to all I have prayed for,
you gaze at me and I feel a glow,
you are the light in my eyes.
Beneath the star-sprayed sky,
In the wing-beat and gallop of grace,
Birds sound your name from the dawn of the day,
You are the sweet air I breath.
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08:43 pm
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With You
When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.
You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
makes me love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know that I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I will love you."
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08:36 pm
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My Love for You
My love for you can't be defined,
My love for you is unconditional.
My love for you is something only you can have,
My love for you is something special.
My love for you no-one can take away,
My love for you is something you think is unreal.
My love for you is something you should always cherish.
That's how I explain my love for you.
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